Hello everyone, long time.

Hope everyone has been okay, today I went out, like I left my house. It was weird, my palms got sweaty, my hands were shaking and I almost felt like throwing up.

That is TMI, I know, I am sorry, but this is how I am right now and I just wanted to state it, to move onto my post title, I have moments of sanity too. I have moments when I lift my head, and I feel like I can do it, and I make plans in my head.

Sadly though, like everything in life, those thoughts and moments dont last long for me, and before I know it, I am sitting in my room trying my hardest to pretend, to fool myself that nothing is wrong and that I am okay.


But I think I am okay with that, I am not okay, but I am okay with not being okay.

So in the last few days, I dont know what triggered this in me, but I have been really thinking, what do I want, what can I do?! I dont know the answers to these questions, I am no longer as sure of myself as I once was.

But I figured a good space to start was here, and since my Bluehost auto-renewed and I got a notification it seemed like a sign to start here. So here I am.

I have no clue what to do with my life, I haven’t been studying shit, so my Korean level has dropped, my IQ has probably dropped lol, all I have done is play video games and watch tv.

Occasionally while I game I have Korean TV in the background for listening practice, while avoiding things that could trigger me, things trigger me now, and when they do oh holly doo dah is it a nightmare. I have learnt to max out my control as I get very odd urges (bad stuff dont know young-lings might be reading this so shhh) ^_^

But back to like life, and studies. I dont know what I want to study, every time I think I know what to try I back out. The last was Journalism and Media Studies, but it falls short of me being a language and culture person at my core as a human being so I dont think I could have any enjoyment from it. Or maybe I could? I dont know.

So school, on the fence about what to do 🙂 but of course doing it once I figure it out.

Language, I suck right now I am sure of it, so I have decided to take like a few lessons to act as both a review (some content yo) – and to have an evaluation of what my level is and what I need to pick up with. No more Japanese just Korean now.


You didn’t ask, and you dont care but I will share. I wanna go to Korea, and I have my trip planned out I just have to save for like half a year and go 😛 I am determined to go to Korea, not only because this is Korean Notebook, and not only because I love Korea and Korean but also to cleanse my soul.

I need it. And I will do it.

So I have to put myself to it and get going, evaluation of my Korean level is in like 2 days and then from there I know what to do 🙂

In the meantime, in a bit I will have like a really bad video of my books (like a mini-book tour) – I say MINI because I dont have half of my books, they have been packed away and misplaced, and I have to look for them. These are what I have now. So I have like 20 books and magazines and different resources I need to find 🙁

It will be a long night. (what with gaming and all too)

Well, laters 😀 (and if you made it to the end grats)

Tell me how you been in a comment 🙂 missed ya’ll.



World of Warcraft is currently in maintenance and I was just sitting here listening to this song and thought I would log on here and fix links and sort stuff out…just do something while I wait for the game to be up again.

So how has everyone been? Hope everyone’s studies have been going well? I sadly haven’t studied anything in a long time. I dont even know what I remember etc, well, but, anyway. Fixing links and reorganizing everything. I think I will change the colour scheme or something. Pink is just too fucking annoying, and it doesn’t even remotely express  how I feel…

I have 1 hr till game is up so its enough to change and fix stuff.

Want this to be still useful to people. Until I come back…dont know when dont know how. Hmm

To finish off you can listen to this song ⇓⇓⇓⇓ 


As a side note I think maybe I might open a book sometime. Maybe.

Have a good day.





Hello I’m quitting learning Korean and Japanese, its too hard or me!

So bye-bye to language and all. It was fun while it lasted and I learnt something a little. But now its over.

I will have to find something to do with all my books.

I have so many.

I will probably have to sell them all.


Joke ψ(`∇´)ψ

Happy April Fools (*≧▽≦)ノシ))

I wasn’t creative haha. But happy April fools guys (*≧▽≦)ノシ)) and I am not quitting language.

What the hell would I do with my time if I did? Thinking about it is mildly frightening 。゚(゚´(00)`゚)゚。

I have a to-do  list today though. Lets talk about language and etc… random! ^_^


I haven’t been studying because I was watching Hana Yori Dango (花より男子) on recommendation – so thank you, you know who you are ლ(|||⌒εー|||)ლ

And. Yes. I am now a Matsumoto Jun fangirl.

(>’o’)> ♥ <(‘o’<)

(>’o’)> ♥ <(‘o’<)

How could I not be? ㅇㅅㅇ (´・` )♡

So the only Japanese (and language in general) study I’ve done is read one page of 전래 동화로 배우는 한국어 ~ I was waiting for the 6th episode of Hana Yori Dango to buff online lol 🙁 that’s when I picked up a Korean textbook. That makes me feel really bad omg. (‘-’*)

Then phrases I picked up from Hana Yori Dango.

Ya. That is all. No note taking was done these last few days (‘-’*)

Today is study day though (^・ω・^ ) full out wanting to read Japanese at a moderate pace. So just have to finish learning Kana. I will use a few resources online and or reference purposes for both myself and anyone who lands up needing it I will start posting these things under the Japanese category 🙂

Korean. Korean. 

I have 8 books I think on the way to me right now all for Korean. Two of them beginner books that I just want to review because they looked pretty on the site 🙂 want to see what could have helped me if I got them like 3-4 years go or something like that. One is hard, and I probably won’t be able to finish it super fast – I will learn from it. The other is a reading book. Novel.

I forgot the rest. (*ノ▽ノ)

Mmm. My memory is slipping as I get older oh dear! ._.

My two cents 🙂 later


Hello guys and Happy New Year ♥ Let’s make 2015 the year we make all our dreams come true.

I want to make loads of resolutions, but we all know how they get, by mid-January we’ve forgotten more than half. Mainly because its too much pressure. But a few won’t hurt either way.

They’ll be more like goals and comments – guidelines rather (: much better name.

I’m forgetting all I wanted to get done in 2014, it’s gone and this is a new year, with a new infinite amount of possibilities ^^ lets make it all new.

  1. I just want to be diligent in my studies (Korean and other ^^) 
  2. Make more blog posts that are language orientated. 
  3. Exercise – the body needs just as much as the brain 🙂
  4. Try one new thing — just be wild (like eat a Kiwi fruit lol) 

Last one was a merry joke ~ although I haven’t eaten a Kiwi though genuinely, the smell is rather funky to me.

That’s it, I of course want to make loads of more lovely Korean learner friends!!! 🙂 we have common ground don’t be shy. I’m actually always nice (I’m lying like 75% of the time I’m nice)

I cannot believe I am going to say this but, I’m already studying Korean right now, using the final stages of Ewha Korean (2-1) which is fun beyond, I still suck at certain sections — a whole 365 days to work on it all though so I won’t even panic.

To all 새해복 많이 받으세요 🙂 앞으로 잘 되고싶어요! ^^ 새로운 첵 샀어서 많은 리뷰 여기 블로그에서 나올거예요! ㅋ 잘 기다리세요.